PRS Mellan mig och Lama

Why would I deserve it? Just because I don't look good it doesn't mean I deserve it. I don't get it.
"My last name is Blackery", I said and looked down at my knees.
I'm ugly, I can't continue looking like this. I'm gonna stop being such a weirdo. My hair doesn't help me at all, it just makes everything worse. I'm going to cut it. I'm an idiot. Why can't I just be normal, like everyone else.
"Now it's my turn to ask you a question. What's your favorite subject at school?" Lame question, but I couldn't think of anything else.

Shit I shouldn't have said that.
"Well um music." I mumble. "Eh hey im sorry I said that it just- I was just pissed I- I dont know I never say sorry so I dont know what to say really-yeah im sorry you dont- you look go- yeah I dont know sorry." I ramble. "So whats your favorite subject then?" I say in one breath. Okay that failed big time. I dont even know how to apologise I dont know I - okay now im rambling in my own thoughts can I just shut up god.

I nodded. Just a simple sorry would've been enough.
"Okay.., it's okay", I murmured.
"Uhm. I don't think I have a favorite subject in school" I said and looked out the window.
"My turn. What sort of music do you like?"

Should I say the same to him as I do to every other person? Or should I tell the truth? I just felt like something was pushing me to yell the truth.
"Eh like pop and punk-rock and rock and like scream music or whatever. You?" I said quickly.

"Really? I didn't expect that from you." I said with a grin on my face. A friendly grin.
"I listen to anything. Do you have any hobbies?" I asked. It was getting dark outside. already. It felt like we would've been there for just like an hour or something.

"Nah, you shouldn't." I smirked. "And no not really. But you have to listen to something?" I frowned. Right?

I shrugged my shoulders.
"I don' know. I like alternative and stuff." I said.

"Okay." I looked out of the window and saw that it was dark out. "Shit." I stood up. "What time is it?" If I came home late he would kill me. Shit.

Lama

Sorry, det har tagit länge att svara. Har varit ganska upptagen med skolan och flytt och så :3
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I checked my phone. It was 8.30 pm.
"8.30." I responded. "You have to go?", I asked and stood up.

Ingen fara Du svarade ju nu

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"Yeah." I breathed out. God I hope I'll be home before nine or I'd be dead. Literally. I grabbed my backpack from the floor and looked at Edvin.